Its 2am…
So, here we are. Me and the boy, in his new room. He’s wide awake and wants to play. I’m tired and want my bed. Its all right for the wee man, he can sleep at nursery, not sure I’ll get away with the same thing at my desk. I’ve known a couple of people who feel asleep at work. One very blatantly, right in the centre of the trading floor, and one not so, off the side in an IT room. Suffice to say that both didn’t last for too long after their afternoon naps…
Please excuse any spelling errors, this entire blog will be written on my E51 phone, and therefore, it may not end up sounding or looking the best.
In fact, I can’t really see that he will give me the opportunity to actually write something, he’s just too demanding. This is where I need all my patience. He’s being good all right, but getting him to sleep, without leaving him to cry a little (else he’ll wake the little girl) is another matter entirely.
So the new room is generally working out well, despite this episode.. We’ve had 3 or 4 complete nights on the spin of solid sleeping, which is a result. He’s currently beating the living daylights out of one of his ‘cuddly friends’ in his cot! Every now and then, getting up to stand at the side of the cot to scream over at me or laugh, as if to say ’still awake Dad, aren’t i just the cleverest boy you did ever know?’ Oh yes, son, course you are.
So, quick update on the work front, be interested to hear your thoughts on this… I get ‘appraised’ each year, and failing to deliver on time (more correctly, failing to accurately estimate how long things take) is a criticism that has been levelled at me. One which I mostly agree with. Soooo, I need to improve.
Take today, for example, I have done some overhauling on a policy paper that will need sending around for feedback from various global stakeholders and my boss has feedback that I keep chasing him for and he’s not delivering (I’ve been chasing him for almost 3 days now). He tried to deliver at 10 to 5pm yesterday, but knowing his penchant for taking about 6 times as long as he plans (he does like to talk) I decided that it wasn’t the best idea in the world to start a conversation at 10 minutes to 5pm. I like to leave at 5 these days so that I can get time with the kids – it’s very important to me, and to help ensure that I do leave at 5, I get in about half 7 (just in case you were all thinking I ‘work-to-rule’)…
So, back to the policy paper, once I’ve told him that starting this conversation at 10 to 5 isn’t the best idea, to which he agrees – he asks, where do you think we are – is it waiting on me for another iteration or about ok to go out to the wider audience, and I say that I think it’s pretty much ready for the wider audience and his feedback can just come along with that, and I can react to all of it at once. Getting it out to the wider audience is critical since that step is likely to take some time as several people, in different time zones, will take more time to give feedback than others. And he agrees, but then he says – but since I’ve got feedback to give you now, let’s just do that tomorrow, before we send it out…!!! Is this just frustrating for me? I am beginning to feel held back by his management, and have been feeling like this for some time. I think I’ll need to keep an eye on this, and see if more examples come to light. Having worked for him for 11 years, leaving to have a different boss will be weird, but I think something has to give, somewhere. This micro-management is getting on top of me, and is restricting my potential, I feel…
PS – I didn’t write the whole blog on the mobulus in the end, after I’d got quite far I decided to save the draft and then my web browser on the phone kept crashing when trying to edit the draft….hmmm….might have to get a different web browser and see if it works better. Ended up being up with Isaac for about 2 hours in total, so pretty bad, but not terrible…
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