What a turbulent, upsy downy week
Well, today has not been good. Nor yesterday for that matter. Worked until very late, meaning that i get a lot less time with my kids, which really sucks. Hmmm..’sucks’ is quite an American saying, perhaps i’ve been working with Americans and Canadians too long…
Anyway, my boss likes to keep things secret until he has analysed everything down to the most precise detail, and there’s rarely anything that gets done without the most careful and precise planning known to mankind. I can see the value in planning, of course I can, but when you start to seriously hamper the ability to deliver by constantly changing, reiterating the plans, it begins to stop being useful and starts to make the plan itself, effectively, useless because its been delayed too long. Of course, this micro-management seeps into my work, where every single sentence i write becomes a sentence that he’s written. After he’s made me change it all, he insists that it wasn’t that bad how I had it, but he would just word it differently, or what he means, better. Today he made me change loads of stuff but then said, its not really that important and, I think we just need to make that bit ‘colder’. But, its my email, allow me to write the way that I would normally write.
Long days, arguments, frustration is getting me down. I like my job, mostly, i like my boss, to be fair to him. But his micro management needs to be addressed. Sometimes you just gotta get on with stuff, and not worry if there’s too much personality in a work email. In fact, I actually like some personality in my emails. I think it sets me apart from the crowd a bit. I don’t want to be a clone of my boss.
Ok – so that was all happening on Wednesday and Thursday – it’s now Saturday night – and we’re well into the weekend. Week ended much better than I thought it might – work was going better, boss wasn’t as pedantic on Friday as he normally is, and I managed to actually get out of doing some extra work, because someone else has decided to take on some responsibility ! It’s normally me that does that, but not this time. I like seeing people step up to the plate. It’s refreshing. Especially someone who is roundly criticised for not doing so – watching them do it is very satisfying. Good on ‘em. People need to take responsibility and be accountable. That’s how people move forward and get noticed. Course, it’s not the only was, but it’s cetainly A way.
Weekends started well, a bit manic, but managed to get my car MOTd, which took some doing. I’m just not careful enough (in my personal life) to look after a “locking wheel nut”. I have a new one now, and it is STAYING in the car. No more running around trying to buy one, just so the garage can fit me a new tyre. It even resulted in a row between me and the missus. It’s not a good idea to call me “careless” when I’ve had a bad day. And then, not apologise. I don’t disagree that I’m careless. Course I can’t say “nah, I’m good – losing locking wheel nuts isn’t careless”….. but her timing wasn’t entirely the best. And then to piss me off and not apologise. I just saw it as being inconsiderate, given my mood. Coming from the missus, that’s where it annoyed. Normally she is THE MOST considerate of people’s feelings and so it was out of character. We made up the next day when she apologised for the timing of the criticism, which was my only real issue about it…..!! Perhaps I shouldn’t get so het up, but I need her support. We understand each other well, so things are good.
Day has gone by pretty good – Isaac is in his new room, so we’ll see how that pans out. Should be ok. Both slept through last night, so very happy about that. Anna’s been good all day, despite not having her afternoon nap – but I don’t really like how much TV she wants to watch. I always said that I wouldn’t be that sort of Dad (to let them watch TV all the time) – but it does make for a quiet life once in a while. Once we got her running about in the garden, we were all much happier. Isaac enjoyed crawling about all over the lawn too, so that was good. Can’t wait for them to start running around after each other, and the way Isaac is going, it won’t be long. Not sure if Anna will be too happy initially, and I’m sure it will create more problems to begin with, but once she sees the benefits, it’ll be sweet.
Anna did play me up going to bed, and I lost my temper with her a couple of times, and I shouldn’t. I need to control it better. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hit her in a temper, absolutely not. But I shout a bit. And that doesn’t help anybody really. I need to bear in mind that she’s only 2 and she’s been up all day and is very tired. I sometimes forget how young she is because she understands everything so well. If she says “no” to something, which happens a lot, then you just need to explain to her why, and she normally comes back with…. “errmm….ok”, and does as she’s told. It’s the cutest…!
Anyways, it’s time for me to end this scorching day, off to bed to cuddle the missus. Sleep tight all. x
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